Nobody said it would be easy

Nobody said it would be easy. Nobody warned you of the pain you would feel, nobody warned you of the icky feeling you get when you are known as the new girl, nobody said it would be easy. Amen to that.


I have figured out something. This thing is small but will make a big impact. I don't need to care so much about what people think. I love my friends back home in Memphis but sometimes I care to much about what they think of me. I am trying my best. I am working towards acceptance and just being happy. I need my friends to understand that, I need them to understand that it will not happen over night, I need them to understand that pushing me to do things does not help me. Nobody gave me a manuel on how to deal with moving. I wish they did, it would make things easier :) I have to cope with moving to Cincinnati the way that gets me through each day. Some people may disagree with that way but they are not walking in my shoes. 


Life is crazy. Life doesn't promise us that it will be easy. Life is hard. You can only push yourself so much. You can only go so far. Sometimes, we have to cut ourselves some slack and just take a breather. Relax and sit back for a minute. God shut the door on Memphis and opened one to Cincinnati. The only problem with that is, I was no where near ready to shut that door on Memphis. I love Memphis. It is hard to move on from something that you were never ready to leave. It is hard to explain to people how you feel when they just don't understand. It is hard to feel like I am a Ryle High Raider. It is just hard all around. 


So, how do I get through each day? I have no clue :) I personally, want to see what the future holds. I am scared out of my mind but excited at the same time. Each day gets me to my goal. My goal of smiling more. My goal of saying I actually like it here. My goal of feeling more at home. My goal of feeling accepted. My goal of being happy. Sure, I will have those depressing homesick moments, I had one last night! But, if I can smile more and more everyday, those moments will not be as heart wrenching and painful. 


I really do feel blessed with awesome family and friends to help me through! I take every word of advice and tuck it into my heart. Slowly and surely I will accept and move on.