Just one thought

One thought is all it takes. One thought to make me feel the pain and heartache. One thought to make me realize I miss my Memphis. I hate these thoughts. They come when I am least expecting it and they knock me down before I have a chance to fight back. The thought is simple. 

I moved. I miss Memphis. I moved. 

In reality, it is a small thought but in my mind it is gigantic. How do you tell yourself to smile and look at what you have been blessed with? How do you tell yourself to get over a heartache? There really is no answer. There is no cure and there is no remedy. You can only do one thing. 

Look at your life at that very moment. It helps me. It shows me that I am blessed beyond belief.  It shows me that I can do this. It shows me that this isn't easy and that is okay. You take it day by day. God never promised easy. He promised to be there. He promised to be your friend in a time of need. 

So, as you can see I had a thought today. I thought of those lip smacking good ribs and all those friendly southern faces that I miss so much. I thought of my 5247 Arlington house. I thought of my memories. These thoughts come and go. I really can't control them and do my best to cope with them. 

Never in a million years would I imagine being a Junior at Ryle High and living in the Cincinnati area. I guess God had a different plan. :) I have let go a little bit but I am still on the road of acceptance. It is a long road but I will get there. I promise. When I do get there, I have a feeling it is going to be something special. I truly believe that will be the moment where I can call Cincinnati my new home. 

To be honest, my heart is still back in Memphis at times. I love my Memphis and miss it very much. My goal for tomorrow is to have a good Kentucky thought.