two months

The Kelly's have been in Kentucky for two months. Honestly, for me it feels like we have been here for two years :) I have come to the conclusion that it is going to take some time to really be at peace with the move. I have been told countless times that I need to move on and accept it and that is 100% true but I have to go my own pace. Everyday, I get a little better and smile a little more. That day could be one of the worst days ever but I still think I move a little closer to acceptance and peace. I am not perfect, I have no clue if I am handling all these new changes right but what I do know is that I try my best everyday. Some days may not look like I do but deep deep down inside of me I do try. Moving isn't easy and I still think I am better off in Memphis but I have figured out it is only hurting me by looking back at the closed door instead of the open one right in front of my face. Trust me, it is right in FRONT of my face. I try to keep it all together and show to people that I can handle this but deep down inside of me I am crumbling. I can't do this alone, that is where friends come into play. I have some amazing ones and don't think I can say THANK YOU enough to them and to my beloved Memphis family. On my bad days, I smile just thinking that I am engulfed in love miles away. The feeling is pretty amazing. 

I try everyday to have a smiling day and if that day isn't a smiling day it is ok. I will pick myself up and keep on walking. I will keep on walking to acceptance and peace. I will make it there, it may not be today or tomorrow but it will be one day. :)

Miss every single one of my Memphis friends and families <3 Hope all is well!