Normal

This weekend felt normal. This weekend we had our wonderful Memphis friends in town for a full, fun packed visit! It felt normal being with people who knew you. It felt normal to talk about past memories and laugh out loud about them. It felt normal. This feeling is kinda hard to find right now. Everything is so new, strange, and scary that normal isn't going to be in my vocabulary for a little while longer. This weekend was a much needed break. I felt like I smiled a true smile this weekend, surrounded by yummy food and even more amazing company this weekend will be one to remember forever. Thank you Bingham's! 


I got my Sophomore year book this weekend. I was thrilled to look through it and see all my friends but little did I know...it would make me sad more than happy. Reading the sweet messages that my friends wrote and seeing the high school that I still love to death was almost like a set back. I am hanging out with people, getting involved, and cheering for the Ryle High Raiders on Friday night and started to put missing Memphis in the back of my mind. It doesn't hurt as much and I started to feel accepted. Sure, it still feels weird but that is a feeling that I have become accustomed to. This past Friday night, looking through my yearbook set me back a little bit. All of the sudden, my aches and pains of moving were sitting in my lap. The reality of my Junior yearbook saying Ryle High instead of Arlington High was real and true Friday night. I have come to the realization that moving on may not be totally real. Yes, I will learn to love Kentucky, I will call people BFF's here, and I will eventually be proud to be a Ryle High Raider but I will also have moments that remind me of Memphis. Looking at a picture, visiting Memphis, or even talking on the phone to a friend may set me back. It set me back and made me look at my reality. My reality of being over 400 miles away from something that I love. Moving on is hard and I always think there will be a piece of my heart that will never move on. It is a teeny tiny small part but I can feel it big time when I am reminded of Memphis.


I think people move on but I don't think they will ever move on from the fact that their new reality wasn't what they had in mind. I will accept that I have moved but I honestly don't know if I can move on from the heartache that I have when I think Memphis. That heartache will ease and become less heart wrenching but it will always be there. Life is hard and complicated but knowing that God is on my side is very comforting. He knows me and he knows when I will move on and he knows that my life in Cincinnati is going to be great. 


Everybody has setbacks. How you get up and react after those set backs is what sets us apart and makes all the difference!

                                          The Kelly sisters have taken over Cincinnati :)

                                           Loved having the Bingham's!! 

                                          Love these guys!