Have you ever gotten those moments where reality just smacks you in the face?
I do. They all have one thing in common. They are all about moving.
I will be walking down the hallway at school and get that smack in the face. I moved and I haven't seen what I called my home in 5 months.
That right there is a hard thing to swallow. I called Memphis my home and then I was taken away from it. It feels like somebody ripped my source of oxygen from me and I am just left struggling to breath. I struggle with this feeling a lot. It can happen on a weekly basis or a monthly basis but I feel it.
So, I have to ask myself, what can I do to stop that? To control this feeling? Now, most of the time I have no answer but, I am still on the look out for it. The answer will come one day, I promise. It is going to be an amazing answer too. One that is real and true. It could be acceptance or letting go, and it is going to feel great.
There are times where I feel like I am running from my own mind and just trying to escape it all. I don't want these reality smacking moments. They bring back bad memories. Memories of the trucks, boxes, and many many goodbyes.
Some days are hard. Some days bring heartaches. Some days bring back painful memories. Some days bring back sadness. Some days are like that and they are hard to digest. You think you took several steps forward to acceptance and then you feel like something else just knocks you down and before you know it, you have taken several steps back. It isn't a fun feeling to feel. I struggle with it a lot.
A good friend reminded me the other day that if you took 5 steps forward and 4 steps back you still took 1 amazing step forward. That step should be celebrated and praised no matter how little it is. So, today I do feel heartache for my beloved Memphis but I am also trying to remember that one step forward is still one amazing step.
That is just one more step closer to moving on. :)
Hope your Saturday is filled with lots of holiday cheer and some deserving rest!
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