Thankful

Thanksgiving is just around the corner and it has me thinking of some things. There is a part of my body that is forever thankful of the thousands of blessings I have but there is a part of my heart that longs to be in Memphis for thanksgiving. I miss my friends, all I want to do is see them and give them a hug. As I look back at these past 4 months I see multiple things. I see hardships, tears, anger, laughs, smiles, and love. I am thankful for all those emotions, the good and the bad. 


I still struggle to this day with the thought of moving. It makes me mad actually. I was ripped from my comfort zone. I was ripped from everything and everybody I loved. That makes me mad. I am so thankful, hands down but, I miss Memphis and still want it back at times. My heart aches for Memphis. It hurts and it is so hard at times. So hard. 


How do you control these thoughts? How do you be thankful for what you have at this very moment. 


You push it aside. You look at the friends sitting beside you. You look at the family hugging you. You look at the house you live in. You look at the car you drive, clothes on your back, and the food in your stomach. You look at your blessings right in front of your eyes. For me, this helps. It makes me smile. 


This thanksgiving I have a lot to be thankful for. I consider myself very blessed. I look at where we were 4 months ago and I smile. We have all come far. This thanksgiving, I am giving thanks for the all the new things in my life. The new experience, memories, moments, laughs, and smiles. 


I still struggle with the move every single day. Some worse than others but, I still struggle with it. I have this big urge to see my friends. Four months is a long time and I miss them all so much. So much. It really hurts my heart but I am learning how to cope with that. Some days will be bad and others will be great. Just take it day by day and do the best you can. I can do it. I can. It just takes time. I know it will still take time. 


So, I take a deep breath on the bad days and put a smile on my face on the great days. I am so blessed with the wonderful friends I have in Memphis. I love them all. I am also very thankful for my new Kentucky friends, I love them as well. :) 


Happy Thanksgiving y'all! I am blessed to have you in my life :)