Every so often I have these days of homesickness. I feel the need to see Memphis. I feel the need to be there and hug all my girlfriends. I feel the need to be back in my Arlington bedroom. I feel the need to walk the halls of St. Paul UMC. I feel this sudden urge for Memphis.
These days can be tough at times. I would love to hop into my car and drive the 7 hours but truth be told I like Kentucky. I like Young Life. I like the girls that I call best friends. I like my house and my new room. I like Kentucky, yes I do.
It is hard for me to balance these two in my heart and in my life. I want to be there for Memphis just as I can be for Kentucky. Sadly, that isn't possible. I can't drive to their house and have a movie night with Memphis like I can Kentucky. There has always been a part of me that feels as if part of me is still in Memphis. If I could combine both worlds, I would in a heart beat.
So, why did God give me the challenge to love two states? Why did he give me the opportunity to love two states? Why did God give me the privilege to love two states? I will never know that answer but I find glimpses of it here and there.
When my stomach hurts from laughing due to a girls night or when I drive to school and see the Kentucky sun rising. I find pure joy in these moments. I feel blessed and tell God that maybe moving wasn't as bad as I thought.
I am will never know why he moved me so in the meantime I am going to be thankful that my roots spread beyond just one state and one city and one town.
I have been reading this great book. It is called Bloom by Kelle Hampton. I started reading her blog this past summer and she is amazing! She does an amazing job of seeing the beauty in hard struggles throughout the crazy ride we call life. Visit her blog: www.enjoyingthesmallthings.blogspot.com
In one of the chapters of her newly released book she talks about these things called "God Spinners." Just when you think you got the life you wanted and are walking on the path that you imagined God, changes it. He spins something you would have never imagined in your way. What are you going to do? Are you going to take it head on or are you going to sit back and let the experience pass you by.
I am going to take it head on. So what I still have homesick days? I say bring it. I say I am ready. Who knew that I would be here living it up in Kentucky? Who knew I could carry such love for two states in my heart? Who knew life could be so crazy? Who knew?
Hope all is well, pictures coming soon!
Miss ya Memphis!
